Hiatus?

Wow, there has been a big hiatus here...
Life's been a roller coaster ride for us in the time that lies behind us.

In the last couple of months I've heard of people becoming ill or dying much more than I can handle. I didn't know all of them personally, but everytime it was a shock to hear the news. About 5 years ago there was a same sort of period in my life and it makes me scared, almost panicking. Something I thought I was over... At this moment I can say that I am and I try to live conciously without forementioned fear. It works!

Somehow, New Year's Eve felt like a new beginning and all the more so when it became the start of February. Mum has had a ckeck up with another lung physician. The X-rays were positive, stating stability or even a diminishing. She's feeling a lot better, hair is growing back and the negative effects of the chemo therapy start to go away.
We knew there was a good chance for stability, but still... I needed to hear that again some months after the last treatment. For me this was quite stressful (believe Mum was a lot more at ease!), but now we can all breathe again and enjoy life!

Finally a very good friend who's in a divorce found a new home for her and her daughter. The divorce is official and now she can finally make a new start and build up a life again! As soon as she gets the key we want to go and have a look.
Another good friend got the divorce papers too and can also make a real new start now.
A third very good friend started a training in natural horsemanship right before New Year's Eve 2009 that will take several years next to her office job. Quite an adventure, but so far she feels so much at home and doing this training makes her very happy.

It seems more people are making a new start with things in their life or sometimes their complete lives and it makes me happy! We also had to say goodbye to our lovely neighbor whom we have know for 21 years. A sweet man, loved by many, who lived to be 93 years old and still enjoying everyday he was around. A true example!

During the winter I've been ill a lot and my energy still runs low. I have missed a couple of birthday parties, had to stay at home a lot, luckily managed to keep working in my part time job, but next to that there wasn't much left for other occupations. I still have to catch up with emails, other stuff that has been lying around for months and pick up crochet again. Slowly I am and the feeling of wanting to create something is back again.
I realise there's a chance that life will always be like this: months of working, being busy and doing stuff and times when nothing is happening due to illness and lack of energy. Still, we notice improvements in the last couple of years and now I'm starting a mindfulnesstraining in April. I do hope this will help me to participate more complete in life and I've always loved yoga and meditation, but just didn't so enough with it. It will be relaxing anyway, but so far 25 years of working with it has shown a lot of progress because of this training for a.o. people with more or less permanent health problems so I'm positive about what it can do to me.

A new start! :)