It's been awefully quiet here for a while!
I did some crochet projects for charity, but during and after that my health got me into trouble and I really had to take it easy. There was a point when I was ready to accept the fact that I wouldn't be able to work for more than 16 hours a week instead of the 24 for which I'm paid. Lyme Disease and PCOS, it seemed like those 2 were ruining my daily life. I was really grateful to find that after that turning point of acceptance and giving in suddenly a change came. Lots of complaints that were there for quite some time lessened and others vanished. Right on time.
Soon after that turning point we found out my Mum has lung cancer. It's not life threatening and she's on chemo therapy now. Last Friday we heard that the doctor wants to proceed with this combination of meds, because the x-ray pics were satisfying. From the 4 treatments there are 2 more to go. Unfortunately she was in hospital for almost a week after the second treatment because of severe obstipation. There is a chance this will happen again, but Mum doesn't care now she knows this treatment is doing it's work well.
Last week was tough, having to await Friday and the x-ray pics. We were terribly tired and even after the good news I couldn't find my energy again. The old complaints? No, it felt different and it turned out to be either a cold or some virus! Even beneath the muscle and head aches I can feel the energy I found back and although I'm still tired now I do realize it will get better as soon as I recover fully. Until that time it's better if I'm not seeing Mum.
In the meantime I've started to crochet again! I've actually started in hospital.
My dad died there 4 years ago. Although he had lung cancer as well he didn't die from it. He had a rare disease that put him into IC often before they even discovered the disease and found out he had it too. It was because of this disease that his body was older than the 65 years he had lived up to that moment. It was hard to let him go, but there was no other way and he lived his entire life in those 65 years. I'm very proud of him!
Now my Mum was admitted and treated in the same hospital and all of us are sure she's going to make it. For the last couple of months it seems I'm facing old enemies, but only to find out it can be different than all negative. Same thing happened when I had to call in sick for 8 hours a week at work and it happens with Mum now again. Therefore it felt okay to start crocheting again in the hospital. To emphasise for myself the feeling that old fears can be released and that negative situations in the past not always have to be negative today. Something like that!
There are some projects that have my attention at the moment. One of them is really fuelling my restart in crochet, because I'm a tester for a new pattern! It's wonderful and I'm honored!
More news later on :)
